it's 10:50pm and we've had a full day of church & relaxing with family. i even got a bit of quiet time to sort through some pictures and video that always hangs lightly over my head to get to. as if sorting through crazy amounts of pictures that i take of our little family daily aren't enough, I've added video footage to the mix!!! it is really kind of insane how much effort it takes to take, sort and edit through pictures and video but i am so happy that i am able to do so. 

for the past couple of months i have been walking around with this pretty little camera of mine not too far behind me.

#1 i try to grab it anytime i have something on my mind and to make sure i catch all of the special little moments and funny times with my crew. its been a lot of fun and probably an even bigger pain up until now.

#2 there was this self inflicted pressure to produce images and footage every day and to complete videos immediately and it was just ways too much! i haven't the slightest idea why i have to make everything so complicated in life but im currently working on that. from now on, i decided that i will take it all one day as a time.... this life as blog/vlog thing :) i figure i can talk myself through my thoughts and daily "to dos" on this little space of mine and get done with my pictures and videos...one at a time. 

#3 and this might be a weird one but seeing myself on camera has really helped me become more comfortable with who i am and what i see looking back at me. there is a very interesting dynamic going on between the media/internet and what your eyes have been trained to see as "beautiful" and what you actually see of yourself (unedited/no filter) and right in front of you. (maybe ill explain more of what I'm trying to say later (its late & im tired ...lol)

#4 the kids are really enjoying having the camera follow them around too. there is just something about seeing themselves in the display that brings on the giggles and funny conversation.

#5 another thing i really have a love/hate relationship with is the video edit. sometimes it takes so long to make it through a days worth of footage. it is so tedious and time consuming. what i have come to like, however, is that recording our days allows me to see myself "outside of myself". it gives me an opportunity to see my reactions and behaviors that went well and the ones that i need to work on. being left to ourselves a lot of the time, makes it easy for bad habits to settle in without anyone really around long enough to lovingly let you know that you may need to change a few things. it really has been a wonderful experience thus far. 

well, with the exception of the many headaches trying to learn to handle such large files, shuffle batteries and sf/cf cards, empty footage etc. 

lets just say its been real...... good LOL

from syreena, with love

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