{AWAY IN D.C. PART 1...}

"living without limits comes from a person whose heart is more captivated by a vision than a problem ~ "

i love this quote so much and it applies to my whole entire life right now but in particular, my marriage. sometimes our circumstances make it hard to find time to connect with one another's hearts. its hard to see past the the challenges of each day. hard to rest in HIS promises. hard to constantly take the necessary moments to recharge and refuel. i have no idea what it would be like to live in this world and navigate through marriage without our foundations being rooting in HIM. i am so grateful to have someone who loves our God like i do. and evermore, someone who believes that HIS every promise for our lives are for NOW and for ALWAYS.

TheFALLCo. was birthed and is an ever revealing love letter/blueprint from my FATHER above. i know it just seems like a t-shirt company, but it really is so much more. the other day i read that God sometimes responds to our prayer with an answer, while other times HE responds to our prayers with a "journey" that reveals those answers along the way. YEP. PRETTY MUCH! in building this "business"  HE teaches me day by day, not to conform to the ways of this world, but rather to walk each one of our days out by faith and leaning on + resting in HIS love. i say all of this because it has everything to do with this little trip of ours. 

it has been well over a year now that we have been walking out a new level of our faith as we learn to truly trust in HIM as our healer, our teacher, our provider. gosh HE is so very good. good not because HE parts the sea and raises the dead in our lives everyday, but rather, like a good teacher... reveals to us the miracles that are, in fact, laced in every part of our EVERY DAY. 

we spent a few days in D.C. away with one another and it was so very special. we didn't do anything spectacular. we didn't travel anywhere exotic or grand. but we enjoyed being together so very much and couldn't help but smile at all of the adventures that our FATHER has in store for us both near and far. 

there was not one argument. there was not one single moment of confusion that wasn't nipped in the bud right away. there was not one single moment that was taken for granted.  after ten years of challenges and trying times growing + navigating through life together, i really can not express how simply wonderful it was. 

just believe that it will get better. believe that God works all things out for your good. beielve that HE is both, the author and the finisher of our faith. beielve that the vision in your heart for your marriage, your family, your business, your life.... is so much bigger than any problem you encounter. just believe that God is, in fact, GOD! 

just grateful.

also, you can check out our vlog of day 1 HERE...

from syreena, with love

{TIME FLIES & MY LADY BABY IS THREE TODAY...}

i have no idea exactly how we got here. i remember wearing her in my wrap and looking down at her face staring back at me. i remember staring so deep into her eyes and thinking, "i wonder what you will be like when you are THREE?" she was such a beautiful baby then and an even more beautiful little girl now. this morning, i plan on making her favorite breakfast, painting her nails, braiding her hair, coloring pretty flowers, playing dress up, opening our play restaurant for business and singing the Home Soundtrack at the very top of my lungs with her. but right now, i just want to stare at a few more photos of her when she wasn't THREE and was still my lady baby.

i can't stress enough how much having photos/videos/blog post + journal entries, bless me as my babies get older. like the story of her birth, and how different it was to have a girl, when i was having trouble adjusting to three kids, and being a newbie at doing hair, or when she turned three months old, and that scary time she spent nights in the hospital, up until we celebrated her first birthday!!! and now she is THREE...

my only regret is that i wish i had taken MORE pictures, MORE videos and written MORE blog post + journal entries. but thats ok.... there is always room to step it up a little :)

i love my little lady baby with all of my heart. happy birthday my precious little girl.

from syreena, with love

{THINKING OF MY BABY GIRL...}

i can't help but to think about my last baby this morning. she will be a three year old in just three days and while it kinda makes me sad, i am constantly reminded that she is such a gift and evidence that faith does work! i won't get into all of the details but this is the doll and the rug that i bought when i found out i was pregnant and months before they confirmed that she was, in fact, a baby GIRL! 

i have been browsing through photos/video (like i always do :) to find precious little memories of our lives after this cutie came along. as she sits right next to me, with her laptop right beside mine (doing work) i am so grateful that she is mine. 

from syreena, with love

{theFALLCo. IS HERE...}

i wrote out words of faith on the sidebar of this blog a few years ago. go on... read it again, lol. although it has felt like such a long drawn out process and i often feel like i am "all over the place" documenting these times really has shown me how much HE knows the plan and i don't really need to. when i look back on things that i have written earlier on and see them unfolding right in front of me it gives me comfort in knowing that HIS plan for my life is greater than whatever I can think of. 

our website is LIVE you guys!!!! and i must say that (even with all of the imperfections) there is so much joy in starting and finishing something without glorifying "perfection". all of the website's links should be functional and the basic information is entered. i am pacing myself and the growth of the site/business trusting that things will grow organically, in time. i am so excited!!!!

eeeeeekkkkkkkk.... the bare bones of the site are good enough to release and it is starting to come to life now!!! i ordered all of the designs in both the black on white shirts along with the white on black and they look sooo good. i realize that i have yet to explain completely, what i have been working on but i don't think i ever will. (all at once, at least) i am ready to be willing and obedient as i look to HIM for direction on where to go and what to do next. its not easy. i keep wanting to do my own thing and make my own plans and i constantly have to fight the urge to do things in my own efforts and my own "works". i believe that my first steps were to write out the vision (the parts that i know of), get my designs out and ordered, and start telling a few people. now i am ready to listen for my next steps. faith is such an adventure...

i would love it if you would visit and take a look around. let me know if there are any areas/links that are broken etc. i set up a discount code for our launch!!! enter the code: LAUNCHDAY at checkout to receive 10% off your first order!!!! 

sidetone: i never really know all of whom are reading this blog of mine, but i am sure glad you are. it gives me accountability and really brings a little extra joy to my life to write out small clips from this journey and for that, i am so grateful.

from syreena, with love

{MY LADY IS ONE, AND THE PIECES OF HER BIRTH STORY THAT I CAN REMEMBER...}

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the lady baby's first birthday party was yesterday and it was magical. that is, if magical is defined as a beautiful day, pretty decorations, paper butterflies and a promise to always pay a party planner from here on out. magical, it was!!! i haven't gotten around to download any pictures just yet but i figured that it was about time i made myself sit down and try and recall the events that led up to this beautiful baby girl being in my arms on this day exactly one year ago today. 

i still had a good four weeks left. i had been nesting for... forever. and i was pretty much been over this pregnancy since it started, the hardest one yet. the sick and sore days far out weighed the good ones and i spent several nights dreaming vividly of her sweet little face to keep from freaking out about all of the pain and discomfort i was in. i don't know if it was really as bad as i remember it to be but i know the better days were far and few between. 

her pregnancy was beyond a surprise. i was on my third week of insanity when i had become unable to keep my eyes lifted for longer than thirty minutes or so. it was bad. so bad that i would gather snacks in a big bowl for the boys to grab from throughout the day and be in the exact same spot on the couch when BDH came home as when he left for the day. bad. 

i started having very faint contractions in the early evening. i knew what they were but i was forcing myself to believe that they weren't what i thought they were. it was too early. as badly as i wanted her out and in my arms i still wanted her to keep baking for the four more weeks that we needed her to. 

it had been raining pretty heavily for the last few weeks or so. one storm after the next it was weird. i started timing the contractions and they were very irregular and still very very faint. 

that night before going to bed i prayed. "Lord if this is the real thing, lets get this rolling and if not please let these pains subside." i slept well and the next morning i woke up and the contractions were coming. with each pregnancy my prayer had always been for me to enjoy it. for the labor to go even smoother than the last and a quick and easy recovery. i called the doctor and the doctor told me to come on in.

i showered, put on make up and packed the boys in the car to drop them off at the hospital with the grandparents. excited. 

when we arrived they took us back and hooked me up to monitor the contractions. of course they had drastically slowed down by then, i was only about a couple cm dilated and it looked like i was about to be sent home. as i was getting dressed i knew this wasn't right. i let the nurse know that she was coming today and although the look in her eyes said "no, ma'am", she said, "well if you'd like you can go on a two hour walk and see if that gets anything moving. 

I said, yup! BDH went to pick up food and I set off walking.

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the next two hours were beautiful!!! i really don't know how else to describe it. 

BDH got stuck out in the rain, the water flooded a lot of the roads and he was having trouble getting back any time soon. so it was just me and my Lord. 

i prayed, i confessed the same couple of paragraphs I had taken a quick screenshot of from the book "supernatural childbirth" and i power walked through each contraction. constantly reminding myself of the job that my body was given to do. i really do love labor. 

as the rain came down, i could feel the pressure in the atmosphere moving my baby girl into position. it was so weird and so beautiful all at the same time. i prayed, i randomly called my mommy and my bestie, i sang.... ahhhhh that those moments were heaven for me. and the only thing that was missing was my husband. i wish he was there. i wanted him to be impressed with how i was handling it. i wanted him to see and be proud of what i was doing. but i now think that that was exactly the reason he wasn't there. it wasn't about me. the glory wasn't mine to have at all. 

i felt the closest to God in those moments. looking back, i now think it was the amount of focus that i had on him and the matter at hand. i wasn't thinking about bills, about what to cook for dinner, about cleaning my bedroom or doing laundry. i was focused on HIM. and trusting that he would guide me through this process. 

the pain really wasn't that bad at all. and as the contractions mounted, it was soooo helpful to walk my way through them. i kept confessing. i kept praying.

i am a believer in the idea that God meets you were your faith is. the confession that i had copied noted all of the plans that i had for her labor and delivery. that my organs would move into their correct positions, that i would require no assistance moving the baby out etc. however, there was a part of the confession that i left out. a part that said that my water would break when the time had come to let me know that she was ready. when i got to that part of the confession i just skipped right over it. my water had never broken with my two previous labors and it was hard for me to believe that it would happen this time around. as i walked and confessed and prayed, i heard a small stillness in my spirit ask me why. and then that same voice instructing me to add that part back to my confession. i was then reminded of a message i heard from kenneth hagin and hearing him say, "faith will work in your heart, even when there is doubt in your head". 

the two hour mark was over. i stopped by the bathroom really quickly and snapped this pic below. BDH had arrived. and they took me back to an exam room to check out an progress. we got back to the room and as soon as we shut the door behind us. MY WATER BROKE!!!!!!!

from then on, things went very quickly. pains were easy, nerves were high whenever i lost sight of my focus, family arrived, laughs and giggles filled the room (and sounds of hospital intercoms and heart monitors etc.) one epidural (because i like them) , a few hours and two pushes later.... we had a beautiful BABY GIRL!!!

^^^ savannah demi ^^^

6 lbs 8 oz

21 inches

6/30/13

^^^ the day we brought our lady home. ^^^

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its been a joy ever since... i am surprised at how much i am able to recall a year later. i'm also kind of sad that i don't remember all of the details or specific timeframes but i am so glad that i took the time to sit down and write out what counts. i can now say that i have fully documented all of my babies birth stories and i am happy about it.

from syreena, with love