{LIFE & LOVE THROUGH THE 4X5, 09.24.17...}


you know all those things that remind you that you are doing just fine?? i am certain that i need to think on those things more often. 

fall is here and everything has happened so fast. the summer FLEW by, the school year is in full effect, and we've kept all of the memories going no matter how tired or uncertain we've felt about the direction of our lives. 

this last month the kids made so much progress with their swimming lessons and are basically fish now! we've been to a few weddings and a TON of soccer games. the kids have been in "training" for TheFallCoKids, filling orders and sprinkling packages with love. and, my baby brother and his beautiful girlfriend made me an auntie for the first time with another niece/nephew on the way in just a couple more months.



so, no matter how i feel about how much further on the "path" i should be by now, Lord, help me to navigate my disappointments and setbacks so that i may stay the course and not give up!

just a little end of september life & love through the 4x5...

from syreena, with love


over the last several days, i have questioned my qualification to homeschool my babies, changed my mind about choosing the right curriculum about eighty-five times, and have been overwhelmed with thoughts of inadequacy as their mama. a.k.a, we've been sick. 

it started the thursday before last with kendall bear, two days later.... it hit cam and I've been pushing through for over a week now. i keep reminding myself that it hasn't been THAT long and that this too shall pass but, its just been one of those times. 

is it just me or do all the sweetest moments with your kids happen at times where you have to fight to savor them??? you know, when you try your hardest to listen to their laugh in slow motion? i can't be the only one that does that. this time around i, basically, felt like i was near death and this sweet little lady baby insisted on staying right next to me. she wanted to "do mommy's hair"( which is NOT as sweet as it sounds). she kept grabbing my face and climbing on top of my head to check my temperature. it was like heaven and hell all at the same time (i kid, i kid...but not really). #realmotherhood


at any rate, i did everything within my power to try and savor the precious moments amongst the mess. and, these photos of my lady trying to read a few doc mcstuffins books to me to help me feel better... GOLD!

p.s. this TOO shall pass.

from syreena, with love 


it is a shame i am just getting around to posting these pics from thanksgiving. my babies had so much fun spending time with their cousins and love to see that so very much. i have been so consistent with my posts on my vlogging channel and even our homeschool channel, but i haven't done the best job keeping up here :( .


thanksgiving weekend was so much fun. my babies got a chance to hang  out with their cousins and there is nothing like being with your family. we headed off to jumpology on our last day together for a fun filled early celebration of their cousins 4th birthday. 

^^^ this kid is so very special to me ^^^

i got to hang with my mommy, my bestie and my niecey-pooh (i just missed her birth by an hour) ...

afterwards, we headed to get pizza with all the kiddies. kendall bear got the chicken fingers and fries and had a blast listening to all his cousin's chatter.

I'm pretty sure we should just go ahead and call this day "national cousin day out" from now on. smells like a tradition to me. :)

from syreena, with love

{LIFE & LOVE THROUGH THE 4x5, 11.30.16...}

well, i haven't done a life & love post in a while and its well overdue. i ,actually, haven't been taking as many photos with my phone lately as it seems I've traded it in for  my "big" camera a lot these days. i still always end up with lots of gems that bring back such beautiful memories. memories of moments full of joy and laughter and even memories of all the "hot mess" moments that i am just glad i have picture proof that i made it through, lol.

tomorrow will officially be the first of december, the last month of 2016 and it seems so crazy to say. this year has FLOWN by and i must say that i am glad to see it go :) here are just a few things that i would like to remember from the last couple of months...

1. i decided to do a better job caring for my hair which has meant a couple of homeschool mornings at the salon with mommy. 

2. cams soccer season came and went and although i love to see my baby play, sunday afternoon travel soccer games are for the birds. after every game i would ask him if he did his best and if he had fun. the answers were always yes, yes and I'm grateful for that. he did tend to fall a lot on the field and it was so hilariously painful to watch. heading off to a game i heard his sister say to her big brother, "don't fall this time, ok"! that girl :))))

3. morning. snapchat. selfies. FAMILY FUN!

4. regular trips to the library to return mounds of books, such a fun walk just a few steps outside of our front door. 

5. date night selfies with my dear husband.

6. another year of walking for  a cure for juvenile diabetes with our dear christian.

just a little life & love through the 4x5...

from syreena, with love


tonight, we put up our christmas tree and i have to admit, I'm sad to feel fall pass by so quickly (sorry, no christmas pictures yet, I'm just not ready) !!! i am pretty sure that time is flying by and I'm having trouble figuring out how to slow things down a bit. my dear husband has been on a new job for three whole weeks now and i snapped a few photos for old time sake. it was his first saturday OFF in a VERY LONG time and we spent it doing "normal things" with BIG gratitude. 

the gratitude that I've felt since that first saturday OFF is most certainly a result of a change in perspective. he has had saturdays off on jobs in the past and i had no clue how much i took them for granted until they were taken away. i know that may sound bratty. i am aware that there are plenty of people that have to work long hours and through the weekends etc. but, its just not something that i want for my family. and, to have our weekends back again is pure GOLD in life right now. 

my perspective changes when i think of them... i often say to myself. what would i say to him/her if they were in our shoes...  experiencing the same challenges that life has thrown our way.... I've been thinking this way a TON lately. 

i want them to know that purpose is where the prize is and that perspective and progress mean so much during challenging times. this is random, i know. but, so key. troubles don't last forever. just keep moving forward, just keep walking, one day at a time. 

everything we did that saturday was so basic and i loved it! my dear husband washed the cars and the lady baby tagged along. 

she is getting so big so quickly and i don't have another baby to buffer the sadness of all my babies growing so very quickly. it sucks. 

there is a tree right outside of our front yard, that turns the most beautiful shades of fall and sheds all its leaves within a week. every year i get pictures of my babies jumping, laughing and playing underneath that beautiful tree!

every year this beautiful tree lets go of its gorgeous leaves with certainty that next year will bring new beauty. i want to do the same. i want to give out the best of me, all my love, all my gifts... with certainty that these beautiful parts of me will never dry up and always produce new and better each and every year. 

as hard as it is to watch them grow so quickly, i have to adjust my perspective, they are were my purpose lies and it is in them that i find my prize.  

i promise you, this average, basic, normal saturday... was the best thing that has happened to us in such a long time :) 

from syreena, with love


it is actually early afternoon and i have a few moments to write up a quick blog post + a few pictures from our trip to the zoo last week. we headed to the cape may zoo in cape may, new jersey. brian is good for suggesting family trips at the very last (and i mean, last) minute. but this time he gave we a little grace and suggested the night before. LOL. we, originally, wanted to head to the beach but we thought it wasn't quite hot enough for a day at the beach (in the water, at least). we packed lunches and got on the road.

had my wonderful husband given me enough of a heads up, i would have been able to make a more thorough plan for our trip. i would have probably gathered a few extra resources to make the most out of the learning opportunity and even schedule for a quick stop by the boardwalk only a few minutes past the zoo but ahhhhh well. 

we did, however, thoroughly enjoy ourselves. the weather was so pleasant and the kids were extremely well behaved.

cameron + savannah were super interested in the animals while kendal was counting down until lunchtime. Ha!

the boys read a lot of the signs throughout the zoo. it really is such a warm feeling hearing them read so wonderfully and knowing that i had a little something to do with that. #homeschoolmom

we made it back to the car and had lunch next to the birds.

cam even asked to take a few photos and managed to capture these gems.... it really does amaze me how many of the photography concepts he actually grasps (exposure, the rule of thirds, back button focus) that kid is so teachable. 

they had so much fun and were completely knocked out on the ride home. family fun is the best thing ever!

from syreena, with love


my babies are done with soccer for the spring and i am soooooooo glad it is over, LOL. spring soccer has been so different from fall soccer. the weather just hasn't been fun at all and with brian working on the weekends and me not having a car the whole season, its been a true labor of love. 

it was so fun getting to watch both of the boys play this time around. slightly tricky to juggle watch time for each of my babies when their games often ran right into one another but super fun. 

cameron has really grow between this season and his last. he is so competitive and very determined and excited about life, its contagious. he also really enjoys the teamwork and is very attentive to instruction which is a wonderful thing to watch as his momma :)

kendall..... boy, oh boy my kendall bear! i was so pleasantly surprised by how competitive he is turning out to be. he is not as naturally into sports as his brother his but we found a way to make it exciting and that was with MATH!!! he absolutely loved keeping the score and would constantly score and then turn to look for me with his thumb high in the air and his dimples decorating that cute little smile of his, " did you see that mommy?". he's an amazing kid.

i am so glad to see spring soccer go and well a much warmer, more pleasant season of soccer in the fall. not quite sure if i will have all three of them signed up and ready to go but it so... jesus be an energy drink LOl. love my babies.

p.s. we vlogged the day of their last game just in case you'd like to check it out HERE ON OUR FAMILY VIDEO DIARY

from syreena, with love


one of my favorite things to do with this family of mine, is take an afternoon walk together. there are some days where we spend far too much time indoors, between making meals, school work and chores i forget that i need to force myself to be outdoors as much as possible. its part of the privilege of homeschooling that i don't take advantage of nearly as much as i should. there have been plenty of days when BDH returns from work/errands and has to force me to grab my shoes and head out on the trail. its an awesome little trail, right in the middle of our neighborhood. its the same trail that he walked as a kid and the same one that our babies will remember too. so last week i thought it would be fun to head out and take the camera along to do a little leaf study and get a few bits and pieces of the trail on film, for our memories. 

sidenote: my father-in-love took a lot of video of them when they were younger and i wonder if there is any of them on this trail that i could use in a cute little film? << remember to ask him syreena!

^^^ the film from our little walk ^^^

btdub....try to practice filming with three kids is HARD!!! they are the perfect little actors/talents and it makes for beautiful memories. but, when you are actually trying to get steady shots, be artistic and practice diligently all while keeping your eye on all three! girllllllll..... or boyyyyyyy LOL. H.A.R.D! <<< but you can do hard things right syreena???

from syreena, with love