{SLOW DOWN, THERE'S NO NEED TO RUSH...}

i'm on day 18 of vlogsgiving and just getting around to posting day NINE. trying to manage so much as a mommy, a wife, a business woman, a friend and falling "short" far too often than not can be SO frustrating. it can also be an incredible reminder of the GRACE we have been GIVEN and the importance of patience with ourselves and with others. it is crazy hard to practice patience with others when you have none with yourself. 

i've yelled at you (my babies) and attempted to dismiss you far too often lately. and, while it makes me feel incredibly guilty and like the world's worst homeschool mom the guilt fixes NOTHING. the reality is that i have been stretched, tested and under a lot of pressure but i ALWAYS have a choice. 

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{LIFE & LOVE THROUGH THE 4X5, 09.24.17...}

 

you know all those things that remind you that you are doing just fine?? i am certain that i need to think on those things more often. 

fall is here and everything has happened so fast. the summer FLEW by, the school year is in full effect, and we've kept all of the memories going no matter how tired or uncertain we've felt about the direction of our lives. 

this last month the kids made so much progress with their swimming lessons and are basically fish now! we've been to a few weddings and a TON of soccer games. the kids have been in "training" for TheFallCoKids, filling orders and sprinkling packages with love. and, my baby brother and his beautiful girlfriend made me an auntie for the first time with another niece/nephew on the way in just a couple more months.

EXCITING TIMES!!! 

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so, no matter how i feel about how much further on the "path" i should be by now, Lord, help me to navigate my disappointments and setbacks so that i may stay the course and not give up!

just a little end of september life & love through the 4x5...

from syreena, with love

{THE DOC IS IN...}

over the last several days, i have questioned my qualification to homeschool my babies, changed my mind about choosing the right curriculum about eighty-five times, and have been overwhelmed with thoughts of inadequacy as their mama. a.k.a, we've been sick. 

it started the thursday before last with kendall bear, two days later.... it hit cam and I've been pushing through for over a week now. i keep reminding myself that it hasn't been THAT long and that this too shall pass but, its just been one of those times. 

is it just me or do all the sweetest moments with your kids happen at times where you have to fight to savor them??? you know, when you try your hardest to listen to their laugh in slow motion? i can't be the only one that does that. this time around i, basically, felt like i was near death and this sweet little lady baby insisted on staying right next to me. she wanted to "do mommy's hair"( which is NOT as sweet as it sounds). she kept grabbing my face and climbing on top of my head to check my temperature. it was like heaven and hell all at the same time (i kid, i kid...but not really). #realmotherhood

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at any rate, i did everything within my power to try and savor the precious moments amongst the mess. and, these photos of my lady trying to read a few doc mcstuffins books to me to help me feel better... GOLD!

p.s. this TOO shall pass.

from syreena, with love